I Am Transcending (Poem)

170826 by Andrew Paul Smith

I am awakening
It’s not that I was previously unaware
My consciousness is now prevailing
I am transcending

I am at peace
I have been a man whose passions
Have led him in the past
Whose emotions controlled him

I was distraught
Then suddenly calm came to me
Instead of being the calm
I was surrounded by it

I have analysed till my thoughts
Robbed me of my peace
And now as I begin to transcend
The duality is turning into oneness

I am entering a moment of satori
I hope my emotions and mind
Will never take over again
But if they do I will have a choice
Between sadness and joy

Self-denial is not what I thought
Self-denial is not about sacrifice
It is about choosing joy
And my time for joy has come

The ego part of me in check
The wanderings of my mind ended
My passions in my control
My soul has transcended …

And I will never die

The Peace That Passes All Understanding


The illusions of the external world can seem painful or joyously real to us; and yet our response to these events, and the feelings that go with them, are our choice.

We neither need to accept the external pressures or even acknowledge them if we prefer not to!

At times it is “the peace that passes all understanding” which is the only thing that makes sense of the crazy and yet wonderful celebration called life! <3

Count Your Blessings!


Everyday above ground is a great day! So, if you woke up this morning and you didn’t feel a coffin surrounding your mortal form, then you have the gift of life!

My guess is, it’s better than the fact that you’re breathing. You also have a roof over your head, clothes or your back and food in your belly. There are many people blessed with life that don’t have the things we in the west seem to take for granted.

The attitude of gratitude will make whatever problems you might face seem less painful. If you are blessed with good health, and friends and family that love you, surely today (as every other day) should be a day to be thankful for?

Money in the bank sure helps, but if you can wear a smile on your face and hold your head up and realise what blessings already exist in your life, then I am sure there are many more blessings on their way to you now.

How Long Should We Grieve?


It was Mothering Sunday here in the UK, that’s three weeks before Easter, the exact date 6th March 2005, I know in America and Australia “Mother’s Day” is celebrated later in the year. My Mum was here for the weekend, I had collected her on the Friday evening from my home town of Bradford, 50+ miles north of here (Sheffield).

As a family we were still coming to terms with the death, not quite three months earlier, on 14th December 2004 of my Father. As my Dad’s death approached, we had been graciously prepared for it, his illness was progressive and we knew the end was coming. In that time I had written poetry in honour of him, some of which was handed out with the order of service at his funeral.

Before I went to bed that Saturday evening I wrote about, the after effect of, my Dad’s death, a subject I hadn’t written about since before the funeral. Here’s the poem I wrote; in my head I saw it as the lyrics to a song I didn’t have the melody for:

Written and © Copyright 2005
By Andrew Paul Smith 05-03-2005

We’ll the darkness fell as we walked away
And our sadness dawned at the end of the day
Your eyes opened wide
You looked to us, then to the light
As you gazed into eternity
We were right by your side

The emptiness, the loss
In this vale of tears
In the shadow of death
Lie these living years
Your character, your personality
Your “Iron Duke” humanity
This world is a darker place
Without you and the light you shone

Well the days have past, of numbness and grief
Of separation, goodbyes and the tapestry we weave
Our eyes now can see
The image you left, our remembrance of you
We look for inspiration
Into the life we grieve

The emptiness, the loss
In this vale of tears
In the shadow of death
Lie these living years
Your character, your personality
Your “Iron Duke” humanity
This world is a darker place
Without you and the light you shone

Without you, without you
You stay within us, our memories
And still we are without you

Without you, without you
You stay within us, our memories
And yet we are without you

I saw the piece as myself drawing a line under the grieving process, my Mum saw it differently. It was her who had dubbed my Dad, “The Iron Duke” and she must have thought, by the words she spoke, that I had spent the past few months writing poetry about his death, which I hadn’t. I didn’t correct her, but her words to me became poignant later that day.

She said to me “Andrew, you really must stop dwelling on this subject! The poem is beautiful, but you have to move on, your Dad wouldn’t want you to be sad, but instead to live your life to the full!” I took the words to heart, she was speaking out of her own loss of my Dad and her parents, and many others she had loved, who had left this “vale of tears.”

Stunningly after we had eaten such a lovely family meal with my brother and my partner’s parents all of our children and some of their friends present too. My Mum went upstairs to the bathroom, but was never to return to us; she had a massive heart attack and died at the top of the stairs.

There were other things she said to me on that day, which sound like “parting shots” in my memory now; but for me, although her death was a massive shock to us all, her words about my poem made me aware, in no uncertain terms, that she was firmly of the opinion that life is for living and that grieving was something our loved ones didn’t want us to engross ourselves in.

I still miss both my parents, and maybe I am still grieving their loss a little. I do think of them every day, not with sadness, but with great pride for who they were and the massive effect they had on me and hundreds of other people whose lives they touched! There’s is a hard act to follow, but I know I carry both their spirits as I seek to leave this world a better place than when I got here.

Why do we keep ourselves in a lull?


A friend of mine asked me the other day “Why do we keep ourselves in a lull?” I was saying that I didn’t feel all that inspired and I think it came as a surprise. As the founder and sole administrator for the past six years of the Facebook group “Be Inspired!” it must have seemed unlikely that the leader of an 18,000 strong community of that name could have uninspiring days.

The question though wasn’t about feeling uninspired, it was about staying uninspired! It’s one thing to have an off day, but to get into a rut with life, where the negative seems OK and inspiration becomes something to stop seeking, or even shun, is not conducive to a great life on planet Earth, is it? My friend sent me various videos to help bring me out of my lull, but it was the question that intrigued me.

The question itself reminded me that we have a choice, whether or not to “Be Inspired!” No-one demands of us that we stay cheerful, determined and passionate about pursuing our purpose and yet … what would we choose? If we really didn’t have to depend on our mood, or the circumstance of life, or the weather, or our level or lack of inspiration … what would we choose?

It brought me back to the realisation that, we feel the way we feel for a reason! Our emotions are not always there to dictate to us how we should feel; sometimes our feelings act as a warning to us to change what we are focusing on, or even on what we’re doing, so that we can return to positivity and inspiration quickly.

Why do we keep ourselves in a lull? My answer is because we forget that we can remove ourselves from it, by changing our focus and by changing what we are doing! The “Be Inspired!” group exists to help people to get out of that lull and I have found by reading the posts there and commenting on them, I am feeling much better now!

The Pursuit Of Self Awareness


Life is not easy, but what makes it worse is when you and I are in denial, when our vision is impaired and we don’t have an eagle eyed view of where we’re at. That’s why I believe that, self-awareness is something worth pursuing to the nth degree.

When we can sit with our pain and our true selves, then we can finally be free! When we are being authentic, we can share fully from our hearts, then life unfolds in a beautiful way and as a result, we are then able to help others to do the same.

So who is willing to awaken? Who is intending to take or has already begun taking the journey into self-realisation? Who isn’t scared to face fully, their personal reality and become aware of who they are and the reason why they are here?

Consciousness for humanity is a worthy goal and I want to play my part, how about you?

Whose Rules Should We Follow?


There’s a verse in the good book (Romans 13v8) which says: Owe nothing to anyone except to love one another; for he who loves his neighbour has fulfilled the law!” In my perfect world, there would be no need for laws, if we all lived in the State of Love. I’m talking about a legal jurisdiction, like the UK, California or Texas, that kind of State!

The elders would meet and all individuals, companies and corporations would be held to the high standard of LOVE: – To do unto others as you would want them to do to you! To be kind instead of insisting on being your version of what’s right. It may come to an impasse here and there when motives are being established, but when common sense prevailed, all would be well.

Sadly, we don’t live in such a world, well not yet! I believe as the enlightenment grows across the globe and people awaken to the shift that is taking place on an awareness level, the world can and will be like that; but till then, what should we do? I believe that we should live as if there weren’t any laws, except for the Law of Love, and let the legislature deal with the consequences.

And what of those situations when the established laws are those things which are themselves responsible for making people’s lives a misery? Surely laws should be there to protect those unable to do so for themselves; not to harm anyone? I suggest you look at the work of Gandhi, Martin Luther King, even Nelson Mandela to see what kind of actions are appropriate in such circumstances.